| i dont get life anymore--should i say that or should i say i dont get love anymore--steven is a nice guy and i love him--but all he does is hang around with catlin and kyle--i never see him--which i thought would bother me--but it dosent |
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| i dont know why i bother checkin this everyday |
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| so me and brian are gonna try to make it work--we went for a walk last night and went by aprils house--then when we got back home she was walkin by and she just kept walkin back and forth in front of my house--it was pretty lame--then she started drivin by so brian stopped her and told her to go home but she went to portage--he stayed till about 11 then my mom kicked him out--it was pretty funny--
my ears are still hurtin bad--we put drops in them yesturday and it didnt help much at all--alsiha came over and we went to sell entertainment books but i could barely hear a thing she was sayin
im goin to the rotc ball with steven--maybe we can keep a freindship goin |
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| how can i be in love with someone who hurt me so bad--and that everyone in my family hates--i wish they could understand that i would like to give him a second chance--even if he is gonna be a a very short leash--he called last night on his way to school--he said he would call me when class got over but he never did--i really dont know what to do--my hole guy life is so screwed up--i love brian and wanna be with him--but if i do that jills gonna kill me--steven thinks we're goin out-and i dont want to hurt him--and then erik is always in the back of my mind--i dont think he will ever be out of my thoughts
i think i might go work with ally--at the bucket factory--even thou i dont want to--i need a job-and money like no other--but i want to focus on my lisence and a car first--
why does techno music calm me down--here i was in a bad mood then some techno started bumpin and now im not so down--hmm |
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| so i guess brian really did break up with his girlfriend--hes been tryna get ahold of me--jill says shed kick his ass if he came around--i guess he does deserve it--but not from me--yeah ima yell at him like no other but i believe everyone gets a second chance--and if he does anything like it again--then ill kill him--my only problem is steven--we aint exactly goin out but it seems like it--i dont know what to do with him--hes too desperate and that gets on my nervs--plus i really dont see myself with him--anyway--yesturday was cool we hung out at six flags and it was awesome--we ran into josh rey, ashely flag, and nikki--it was koolwe got to go on batman like 4 times in a row with out gettin off--it was awesome |
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